Going private......

Hope that everyone has been doing well!! I haven't had much to say these last few months. To be perfectly honest I haven't had much to say because I know others are reading this that I don't want to!! Blunt I know, but the truth!! Originally, when I started this blog it was to share feelings, moments, and my life with those that I care about! Unfortunately, the reaction I received from some of these people left me a little blog shy!! Within the next month or so I will be making my blog private!! If you would like to continue to read my random thoughts and feelings send me an email!! Thank you for all of your support and feedback!

On a fantastic, great, different note.....The Fuccillo's are doing good! PTL!! Justus is home and doing well!! Please continue to keep them in your prayers as Justus strives to be a healthy, happy, sweet baby boy!! Andy and Sarah amaze me!! What a blessing to be apart of this journey with them!
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Prayer Request....

Just wanted to send a prayer request to everyone. The wonderful Kersey Family needs our support! Check out there blog and please let them know that we are all thinking of them, praying for positive attitudes and an optimistic outlook for Zac!!

http://kerseyfamilystory.blogspot.com

Many thanks!

A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones. Proverbs 15:30

Perseverance....

Most of you who read my blog know me personally. It is a blessing to have a wonderful support group of people who truly understand me. Your feedback and encouragement make it possible to remember that I am a good person, I am making a difference, I am doing what is right! My outward appearance doesn't matter and you love and care for me unconditionally.

All of the feedback I have gotten hasn't been so positive. It is hurtful to hear words of anger from someone you care about. The choices and actions I make aren't always understood and sadly they never will be. Trying to decide what move to make with loved ones is difficult. There will always be the "what if's" and I am trying to not let those thoughts control every emotion and action. I always knew that there would be a point that things would change in a way I couldn't control. Unfortunately, that moment came sooner than I was prepared for. Now I must make a choice to decide how much heartache I am willing to endure. Being judged for every move I make has slowly changed the way I view my relationships. Only time will tell how this wound will heal.

But, I am going to continue to be the person I have become. I am happy! I am moving in the right direction with my family, Jesus Christ, and myself.

Rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. Romans 5:3-4

The Lord has done great things for us.....

And we are filled with joy. Psalm 126:3

This is my newest favorite verse! It rings so true and reminds me of all the wonderful blessings I have to be grateful for. Together, Patrick and I have had many challenges this past year and we have become a stronger, healthier, and more faithful couple because of it! How wonderful to chat with your husband about your bible studies and to quote scripture together. And I feel wonderful knowing that everything is in His hands!

For Easter I have received the greatest gift ever. The Life Application Bible and it is AMAZING to read. I never thought that I would say that!! It tells you all about each chapter. The setting, audience it was written for, author, time lines, purpose, and key verses! And the best part is that is also decodes the writing for you. Which is especially great for those of us that sometimes have a hard time understanding the verses.

SO, with that being said I have scheduled my appointment for my next tattoo!! It will be this bible verse and Patrick's birth month flower, which is a gladiolus! I go today to work with the artist for the design and I go on the 21st to actually get it!! I am beyond excited and can't wait to see how it looks when it is done! I will be sure to post pictures! And before any of you give me a hard time I just have to say that this is who I am. I know that tattoo's aren't for everyone but I enjoy them the way some people enjoy expensive dinners, shoes, or purses. And they remind me daily of the struggles and blessings in my life!

This is my first tattoo. (AFTER HAVING HAD A BABY) It was after Patrick's first time "away" and represent's freedom and life! It is also located on the hip I broke while in basic training!!

This is my second one! It is Colin's birth month flower. A Daffodil stands for joy and rebirth. It shows the coming of spring and the many blessings that are in store for the up coming season's! I got this one on my left inter wrist. When Colin was just a baby I always carried him in my left arm to get things done with my right!

When I get my next one I will be sure to post pictures!! Where I am getting it will just have to be a surprise! :)

I hope that everyone has a WONDERFUL Good Friday and Easter. I am really looking forward to having an Easter egg hunt and feast here at our home on Saturday, Church on Sunday with our fantastic neighbors, and dinner with there family later!! I hope that all of you have someone special to share this wonderful holiday with!! Blessings!

Happy Birthday Colin!

Dearest Colin,

Words can't begin to describe the way you have changed my life! Having you has brought more joy, love, compassion, and laughter than ever before!! You make everyday brighter and better! Now I see the unending love that was meant for me! Children are a gift from God (psalm 127-3) and you are truly the best gift I have ever received! With you here I have renewed my faith in everything life has to offer! I have committed myself to being everything you need me to be. You have saved me! I love you dear Colin and there isn't anything I wouldn't do for you!! Happy Birthday and St. Patrick's Day! I can't wait to see the young man you will grow into and how much you will learn, change, and teach me! You always have me counting my blessings!

Mommy

I LOVE Seinfeld!

Goodness, what a great show! I could watch it over and over. I love Jerry's sarcastic comments, Elaine's bold and dramatic outbursts, crazy Cramer, and loser George! Especially after all of these years I get all of the inside jokes!! I LOVE IT!

Anyway...tonight as I am getting Colin ready for bed I take him out of the bath and lay him on his bedroom floor naked. I leave him there for just a SPLIT second to grab his comb and what does he do for the first time in months......PEE'S everywhere! And then he proceeds to laugh really hard from his belly!! Goodness, almost two years old and he still amazes me everyday! Even when he is wetting everything within range!

Hope that everyone is doing well! Please continue to keep the Fuccillo Family http://fuccillofamily.blogspot.com/ in your prayers as baby Justus gets stronger everyday!! Sarah, Your an amazing Mother and such an inspiration!! Thank you for sharing your story with all of us!!

MIA

Hello! Hope that everyone is doing well! Sorry that I have been MIA! We have been really busy and to be honest it is hard to think of stuff to write that isn't totally boring and useless! Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know that we are doing well! We are trying to enjoy this weekend together as Patrick prepares for another "vacation"! Does anyone know how to make time standstill? I would love to give more details about time lines, locations, etc. but the details are what makes Patrick's job so special!! He is amazing and such a blessing. I am grateful that he has given me the ability to be a stay at home mother and I hope that in the near future his job will put us somewhere in the southern states with a Chik-Fil-A!!

Also, I hope that everyone looks at The Fuccillo Family's page! Baby Justus has had many problems and it would help if everyone could keep them in their prayers!

Snowy Weather!

This week has been a blur of cold weather, snow, and countless hours of just sitting around. These last few days there really hasn't been enough snow to get out and play in. Not to mention I really dislike the whole getting wet and cold feeling. I have been complaining NON stop. But, this morning when I woke up to see lots of powdery, soft, beautiful snow I decided to make it worth the trouble of getting dirty!!

From the very beginning of the day Colin knew that we were going outside and has been SO excited! I bundled him up in his snow suit and funny boots. It is amazing to see a child touch something so simple as snow for the first time. He walked all funny and really didn't know what to think! Made me feel bad that I hadn't taken him out in it sooner!! Made me think of all the time I spent complaining when instead I could have been teaching Colin how to make the best of of a crude situation. We played, ran around, sleighed down our driveway, and most of all he just looked around! Sheer amazement in his eyes that the world as he knows it was covered in snow! We went with a few friends to the neighborhood hill to partake in the festivities! What a great time!!

It is easy to be upset about the bad weather when you have Christmas shopping to finish, parties to plan, and groceries to buy. But, when I slowed down for just one day.....I was able to remember how much I loved snow, being outside, laughing at being silly, and I got to share this wonderful snowy day with Colin!! Perfection!! I could not ask for more!!

No More Toys Please!!

Hope that everyone is doing well and enjoying the blistery cold weather we are having here in the great northwest! Burrrrr!! Well, Colin officially has EVERY toy a kid could want! His grandparents (my in-laws whom I have grown to love dearly) have purchased a Silverado Power wheel, which was delivered today AND a motorcycle Power wheel! Goodness, what in the world will my child do with TWO power wheels! This house is getting smaller and smaller!!

Visit with Santa

Here is a little peek at the charming young man I am raising. As we stood in line he kept saying "no, no" in that little baby voice and shaking his head, watching all of the children before him. When it was his turn goodness I felt crazy. Forcing my child to sit with a man who really does look a bit scary. Yeah, when he is older he will love him and talk about his arrival for weeks. But at this age imagine what he was thinking when his father and myself made him sit with him!! When I picked him back up he clung to me for dear life!! Bless his sweet little heart! As we walked away Patrick says "What a waste of money....30.00 to make our child cry"!!

Wonderfully Unexpected Day!

Today was nothing that I had wanted yet it was WONDERFUL! I had expected a traditional Thanksgiving Day meal. Last year we had a great time at the Turkey Bowl (food followed by flag football) and I was really excited! But, Patrick got stuck working ALL day because of someone else's oversight! What can you say? Besides "Damn It, That sucks?".

So, today when Colin and I were eating breakfast I decided to call my great friend Desi. Desi is expecting her second child and hasn't had the easiest pregnancy. Not to mention her son is a vibrant, energetic, LOUD, and busy five year old boy. I offered to help her out and watch him for the day to give her a bit of a break. Instead she asks if I would like to come along to a mutual friends daughters birthday party. I agree and I know we will trade roles a bit for the day. How many big prego ladies do you see skating around? And how many 20 month old babies do you see with skates on?

We ended up having a great time. Her son LOVED skating and Colin got the chance to run around and play with lots of other kids. She and I both couldn't have done it without the other and I am grateful to have had her help today. I am also grateful for a glimpse of what life will be like when my baby boy is older.

So, although today wasn't the Turkey Bowl with all the trimmings it was still a fantastic day with roller skating, McDonald's, laughter, and great friends. Good times!

Also, I would like to say "Thank You" to all of you who left me comments. I hope that in time I will get to know all of you better!! Reading every ones personal thoughts is a bit weird and this is going to take some time to get used to!! Not to mention I don't really know what to say that can compare to your stories of births, deaths, living abroad, and humiliation!! Give me time and I am sure I will get the hang of it!

So, the reason I have decided to start a blog is as follows:

1. My sister, who I want to stay close with, has one also. I hope this will help us share all of life's crazy moments with each other!! I hope I am HALF as witty as she is....I mean that in a good way! Being across the country from you is harder than words can describe!

2. My Husband is in a job at this current moment that takes him away from home. I hope that through this blog I will be able to share pictures, thoughts, and the daily trials of Motherhood with him! Our son Colin is growing at the speed of light...I don't want him to miss anything!

3. To rant and say the things that sometimes are hard to say to others. Although I am best known as a person who NEVER holds back my true feelings.

4. I am trying to better myself. I have a journal that I enjoy writing in and I hope that this will be have the same effect. Personal growth comes from self reflection!

5. To make you laugh....either at me or with me!


If your reading this and become a "follower" of what I have to say, God bless you! More to come as I learn how to work this wacky, creative outlet!!